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The Heart Wants What I Tell It to Want

from Sermons by Cousin Wolf

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Where do I go from here?
It’s never been less clear
Should it worry me at all
If I can’t see my picture on the wall?

And where do I go from here?
When it feels like I haven’t walked in years
I just laid down
I still blacked out — I just stopped coming around

And how could I ever find
Everything I need?
Is it all right
If I’m not a man but just a bag of bones?

And after all these years of wishful thinking
And questions that have long since lost their meaning
My one regret
Is everything that hasn’t happened yet

And why do these ghosts appear?
Never letting go, never really here
I find I can’t recall
Most of the past winter, spring or fall

And after all these years of wishful thinking
And questions that have long since lost their meaning
I’m no closer than I’ve been
So, I guess I’ll just ask myself again

Where do I go from here?
Idealize the past? Make decisions out of fear?
But even through the gray
Well, I swear the sun, it used to shine every day

Every day

Tell me I’m no different


from Sermons, released February 28, 2020
Words and music by Matt Halvorson.
Performed by Matt Halvorson.
Recorded and mixed in a flash by Zebulon Dak at Momentum Studios (Portland, OR).
Mastered by Matt Halvorson.
Original album art by Jon Halvorson.


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Cousin Wolf Seattle, Washington

Cousin Wolf is the indie-folk music project of Matt Halvorson. An earnest, prolific songwriter, Halvorson’s songs plumb the depths of his soul, and he sings each delicate tune with captivating intensity. Stay tuned for upcoming singles from the long-awaited baseball concept album "Nine Innings," set to be released throughout the 2021 baseball season. ... more

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